I'm feeling prettier than I have in a long time today...but nothing has changed. Sure my body is steadily working it's way back into prepregnancy shape, that helps...other than that, I'm still wearing the same clothes and have the same hairstyle as always. All that has changed is the how I feel.
How to explain. Sometimes it isn't what you wear or what you put on that makes you feel pretty, although a new outfit can sometimes help, it's what you are feeling inside that does the majority of the work.
My day started out frustrating to begin with...late to church choir this morning, fussy baby during the sacrament meeting where choir was performing. Luckily he waited until after I sang to get fussy. But all of those feelings were normal every day feelings. I always enjoy church and the people there. That hasn't changed. We came home to simple sandwiches (oatmeal for me, we ran out of defrosted bread), had a quick nap, fed the baby, and were off again to church choir practice.
How can I explain. I get more of a spiritual uplifting from that hour of singing than in all the rest of the three hours I am at church. Today may have been different because usually I have the baby during tht time, and I am usually bouncing and walking as I sing, but today my sweet husband took him off of my hands so I could enjoy.
I compare it to endorphins released during exercise...which also helps me to feel good about myself, but not pretty. Must be the sweat that impedes that feeling... but the lift I get after singing is kind of like a spiritual endorphin. I feel lifted up, I feel loved and wanted, and as a consequence, I feel beautiful.
I walked in the church this afternoon feeling normal, and I walked out feeling absolutely beautiful...how blessed I am to have such a gift as this!
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